The bobby pins in her hair were biting into her scalp, but she wouldn’t complain. Not today. She discreetly scratched her head to adjust the pins that were stabbing into the back of her neck, making her head ache with a sharp pain. She sighed with relief when it tugged free and a section of spiralled hair fell to her shoulders, releasing the culprit hairpin into the palm of her hand. She slipped the hairpin into the pocket of her slacks and tucked the piece of curled white hair behind her ear, hoping no one would notice. Her granddaughter had gone through a lot of trouble fussing over her this morning, indulging her with a trip to a luxurious spa that smelled like caramelized apples and sweet cinnamon spices. She looked down to her feet and wiggled her toes. They sparkled like they were painted with liquid diamond flecks and red rubies under the candlelight overhead. She smiled with the memory of younger toes in similar shoes, and felt a stirring in the middle of her tummy. Images from many years ago came back to her aging mind.
Her late teens were hard to remember, muddled with so many years of life in between. But this one day, this one memory, glistened in the back of her dark forgetful mind, held in a spotlight so bright she could feel the wet grass caressing her bare toes. It was late in the evening on a hot summer night, but the sun still blazed in the bright blue sky as if it were mid afternoon. There was a pleasant breeze that blew off the water, and the lighted fountain in the middle of lake blew a cool mist over the festival that day. She remembered the wind tangling her hair into a knotted mess; small wisps sticking to her lip-gloss.
The music was something she didn’t care for at the time, it sounded like old timers' music to her. The kind with saxophones, trumpets and clarinets; she thought it must have been some type of jazz or swing performance. She was sure it wasn’t the music that drew the crowd in that day; she thought it was the idea of being outside, enjoying time with friends and family that had the downtown core crowded with people. There were food stands on every corner, offering hotdogs, sodas, and cotton candy. Normally she wouldn’t go to something like that; she only showed up to volunteer her time for some extra marks in her college course.
As she walked through the throngs of people scattered across the lawn, her eyes fell upon an elderly couple getting up from their lawn chairs. She’s not sure why she stopped; there was just something captivating about the couple that grabbed her attention. Maybe it was the way they looked at each other, or the way they held matching smiles when the man held out his hand for his wife. In her young years, she thought the couple was in their nineties, but in the later years of her own life, she realised they were most likely in their seventies.
As she walked through the throngs of people scattered across the lawn, her eyes fell upon an elderly couple getting up from their lawn chairs. She’s not sure why she stopped; there was just something captivating about the couple that grabbed her attention. Maybe it was the way they looked at each other, or the way they held matching smiles when the man held out his hand for his wife. In her young years, she thought the couple was in their nineties, but in the later years of her own life, she realised they were most likely in their seventies.
She could still taste the cotton candy melting on her tongue; the sugary grains sticking to the back of her teeth. She could feel the sun rays heating her exposed shoulders, burning her pale and freckled skin the same shade as her vibrant red hair. She could see the sun and the moon sharing the same sky, even the stars showed up early, twinkling with a softly lit glow. Nothing was more magical than the couple before her eyes. She would later remember them as The Dancers.
The man looked regal, wearing a white dress shirt tucked into his pressed trousers. A new song started and it must have been a special one, because he kicked off his dress shoes and folded up his pants into large folds. She watched with a smile as he bent down to help his wife out of her own shoes. His wife giggled like a teenager, tilting her head backwards with laughter when he pulled her forward into his arms. They were the only two in that moment. She felt it, as she watched him lead his wife into a dance they must have shared a thousand times before this one. His wife seemed like a magical being; somehow she glowed in her fancy floral patterned dress. When he spun her in his arms, his adoration was clear in his eyes. When he looked at her, his love carried with the notes of the instruments, rewriting the lyrics to their own love song. When he pulled her to his chest, they kicked their feet to an old styled dance, her smile holding onto the memories of years devoted to cherishing only him.
The song could have gone on all night; she could have watched The Dancers for an eternity. They were the only ones dancing, and she was the only one watching. When the song finally ended, she watched them share a warm embrace, pressed chest to chest in absolute joy. They turned and left her standing there; watching their departure, arm in arm, smiling at each other with a lifetime of faithful happiness engraved in their stare.
She learned so much about her self in that five minute dance, at the age nineteen. She knew she would carry that day, the perfect image of love, for the rest of her life. She knew after watching The Dancers twirl into her daydreams, that she would want nothing more in life than to love and to be loved the way The Dancers loved each other. She knew that her priorities had changed; she no longer needed to find the best paying job, buy the biggest house she could afford, or own an expensive car just to look the part.
A balloon popped, and brought her back to her colourful toes still wiggling in her summertime sandals. She hated to leave The Dancers behind, but knew she would see them again one day. She felt a warm hand slide into hers, and she smiled so wide, she was sure her makeup would crack and settle into her deep wrinkles. A wet tear in the corner of her eye slid down the side of her nose as she looked at her husband, remembering her own dance. It wasn’t at a festival surrounded by strangers, or with a sky lit by the sun, moon, and stars all at the same time. It wasn’t about the act of the dance, she realised. It was about the dips they went through together, taking turns leading one another. It was about the twirls in life, moving to the rhythm of the song, side by side. Every dance slows it pace, or picks up its beat, getting through together, moving at the same speed could sometimes be the challenge. The dance was a long, hard, journey, but it was worth the aches and pains a lengthy song could make you feel.
“What d’ya say, Abigail? You wanna give it a try?” her husband asked, holding out a steady hand.
“Henry, I’m not sure my feet could carry me for a full song,” she replied with hesitation.
“Oh, come on mom. Dad never wants to dance. You can do this. Besides it’s your 50th anniversary.” Her daughter interrupted, nudging her shoulder.
“I’ll lead, darling,” Henry whispered in her ear. “We won’t fall, I promise. I’ll hold you tight.” He gave her an encouraging smile before helping her to her feet.
“How can I say no,” she laughed, shuffling behind her husband to the dance floor.
The music started with the soft melody of a piano, and she immediately recognised the song, falling into step with her husband. She could feel the notes traveling through her insides, the soft humming of angels dancing on the delicately tuned strings, vibrating with the perfect harmony. She placed her hand in her husband's as he gripped her lower back, and slowly drew her close. The same song played when she twirled in a fancy white gown 50 years earlier in the same hall, surrounded by family and friends. She felt the gentle caress of his thumb on her hand, and she knew he was reminding her of how he'd comforted her on their first dance all those years ago. She placed her face against her husband’s chest, and could imagine he was 22-years-old again, holding her with the strength of a young man. His grip may be slack now, his feet may move a little slower, and his hair may have turned white over the years, but his heart still beat for only her.